stream of consciousness

Well, the pie is finally all gone. Thank goodness. Although it really is too late now, isn't it? I'll be facing that big bad scale in the morning, and I'm sure it won't be pretty. I better get it in gear in this small lull between pie and cookies, don'cha think? Not a big window there, so I better take advantage. Ugh! Where'd all that amazing will power I had going for me get off to? Darn it.

I know how to cook and bake, do both all the time, but I've never made pie. What is that? People don't make pie anymore. Used to be pie was an institution - for a new neighbor, new baby, picnic, dessert... When's the last time you made a non-Thanksgiving pie? Mmm hmm. When my parents moved into their new house their neighbor brought them over a pie. And then they invited my parents over for a neighborhood picnic. Clearly this man was running for office. (He did win though).

So what is it with finishing things? I'm a starter. Not a finisher. Finishing is not really my thing. I have a crapload of things that need finishing right now. When is that point in your life when you can just sit back and relax and enjoy? Never? Oh, okay. I think that I am going to make a list of three things that need finishing tomorrow, and then I will just finish them. Sound good? (Yeah, I'm not buying it either. LOL!) #1. Finish my Christmas card. Ok then, START my Christmas card. I've got the whole thing in my head. Just need to get it down on paper. No problem. #2. Balance my checkbook. This shouldn't be the crazy out-of-control task that it is but hey. It is what it is. #3. Send out my mail. Really no excuse for this one either, and should be an easy one to cross off the list. So there you have it. Hold me accountable, k?

This room is freezing. Like my-fingers-are-too-stiff-to-type freezing. I can't take it. And it snowed today. Not true, plow the streets, call off school snow. But enough that I should have brushed off my car (I didn't). And then we saw deer in the back yard. A doe and two bucks. Nature, I tell ya.

So, things still aren't going the way I had hoped, but they're going good, I guess. What more can I say? It's out of my hands. I still have so much learning to do I think. My priorities have certainly changed, I can tell you that.

Hey Meg! I'm still here. Just wanted to give you a shout out - HOLLA!! (What the???) Catch me on IM soon. You make me laugh!

A lovely old man told me that my smile brightened his whole day. It was a beautiful compliment. And THAT brightened my whole day right back.

What do you want to be when you grow up? I wish I knew that. I should by now. I'm still working it all out. I guess my true answer would be financially secure, and HAPPY. I'm 50% there. Cause if there is one thing I have learned over the past years is that I must choose to be happy and I am thankful for all that I have. I have love. I have family. I have friends. The rest will work itself out.